For Those Who Refuse to Be Broken: Service as a Fierce Act of Wholeness

“Dear God, let me be Your hands and feet in the world.”

Some mornings, I would be on my knees crying out:
“Please, God, use me — please.”

It is still my prayer today, though my relationship with it has evolved.

For so long, I held imaginary faces in my heart — people I longed to serve. I would see myself helping young and old to know who they are, where they’ve come from, and where they’re going.

But in my waking life, I saw something different: self-sacrifice in my home, my relationships, my finances — in every system that makes up my wholeness. I was longing to be of service, yet I couldn’t have felt further from it.

A sister I trained with in the early days of my journey, Nafisa, once said something that changed everything for me.

She, too, struggled with feeling separate from her purpose — looking around at the “mundane” life in front of her. But then, she chose to see it with new eyes: her service wasn’t lacking, it was ordained. Tending to her children, her home — if that was where God placed her, then what a sacred service it was.

I took that wisdom to heart.

I recognised that my service has always been — and always will be — to what is right in front of me. My children. My partner. My home. My garden. My own healing. This is the sacred work I am entrusted with.

It is a medicine I return to, especially in this hustle-driven world of 2025.

When the wars and conflicts in the world feel too massive to touch, this anchors me in the wars I can influence — the ones in my own mind and life.

But even this wisdom has its shadow.

I have at times indulged too much in the safety of solitude — using it to hide, to shrink. My privilege squandered in the comfort of disconnection. And for a season, that withdrawal was necessary. But the tides are shifting.

The phrase “use it or lose it” has been rattling through me like a war drum.

The consequences of staying small are now too great. The world is on fire — and I am no longer willing to sit in the safety of my own walls. It is time to step forward — with fierce clarity and unapologetic purpose.

I do not move blindly. My code of conduct is clear: I serve from a place of personal sustainability, with my needs in place — so that what I offer is rooted, real, and true. This is what it means for me to live service before self.

The path here has not been easy.

I have walked through fire: trauma, grief, loss, and the silent violence of systems not built to hold us whole. I have wrestled with self-doubt, impostor syndrome, the eternal student’s voice whispering, “You’re not enough.”

But I know now: I am enough — and the work I bring into the world is enough. It is time to claim it.

This Is My Work

I serve as a guide for those standing in the ruins of what life once was — those called to something greater but carrying wounds too heavy to ignore.

I lead you into the sacred space where brokenness is not shamed but honoured — as fertile ground for transformation.

Through deep presence, fierce inquiry, and unwavering clarity, I help you meet yourself in the places you’ve long avoided: the shadows, the doubts, the raw ache of being human.

This is not about fixing you.
You were never broken.

This is about remembering. Reclaiming. Rising.

It is about stepping into the truth of who you already are beneath the noise, the chaos, the conditioning — and emerging as an integrated force to be reckoned with.

Together, we name and embrace every part of you:
the warrior, the wounded child, the wise one within.

And from this place of fierce wholeness, we move — with a steadiness no system can fracture.

Who I Serve

I serve those who stand in the rubble, ready to rebuild.
Those who refuse to let their pain define them.
Those who are tired of being powerless to their circumstances — and are ready to reclaim agency in their lives.

I serve those whose fight still burns, even when their fire feels dim.
Those weary of being lost in a fractured system — ready to stand whole within it.
Those who no longer wish to be at war with themselves or the world — but instead embody the peace they seek.

If this is you — know this: You are not alone. You are seen. You are heard. And there is another way.

The Invitation

If you are ready to claim the fierce, unapologetic truth of who you are — to turn your own healing into a force that ripples out into the world — I invite you to step forward.

You do not have to walk this path alone.

When you are ready, I am here. Not above you, but beside you — as a guide, a companion, and a relentless advocate for your becoming.

Reach out. Let’s begin.

About the Author
I am a Spiritual Director, guide, and truth-teller for those who refuse to let brokenness define them. My work is rooted in fierce presence, deep inquiry, and an unwavering belief in the power of an integrated soul. If you are ready to reclaim your fire and become a force for change — both within yourself and in the world — I invite you to connect with me: themoodychannel@outlook.com.